Random Thoughts

(May 13, 2011)

“The more I seek You, the more I find You. The more I find You, the more I love You. I want to sit at Your feet, drink from the cup in Your hand, lay back against You and breathe, feel Your heartbeat. This love is so deep; it’s more than I can stand. I melt in Your peace. It’s overwhelming.” (The More I Seek You – Kari Jobe/Gateway Worship)

When was the last time you experienced that degree of intimacy?

When I hear and read those lyrics, they always take me back to when I was a little girl, sitting on my Dad’s lap, leaning against his chest, listening to him reading to me (or him allowing me to read to him) a bedtime story. There’s nothing in the world like the relationship between little girls and their dads.

If you’re as blessed as I was to have been cherished by, and to have cherished, your dad, then you likely can recall how safe you felt in his presence, knowing that he would do anything to protect you, to encourage you, to cause you to flourish. My dad truly gave his life for his children. That is, in fact, the epitaph on his tombstone: “He gave his life for his children.”

He gave His life for His children, too.

The feet, the hand, the heartbeat, the love, and the peace in those lyrics are His. Sometimes we forget that our Heavenly Father also is our Dad. We forget that the King of Kings invites us to sit at His feet, drink from the cup in His hand, lay back against Him and breathe, feel His heartbeat, melt in His peace, be overwhelmed by His love. We forget that the whole point of it all is relationship and not just relationship, but intimacy.

He sacrificed Himself to make it all possible. It is the entire point of what He endured on the cross for our sake, and yet we often miss it. He gave His life for His children. Oh, He is King of Kings and Lord of Lords (!), but He also is the One who hides us in the shadow of His wings. We are the apple of His eye, and He wants us to know Him, really know Him.

Those closest to me probably sometimes wish they weren’t. 🙂 If I care about you, I want to really know you. In getting to know you, I have the annoying (for some) habit of peeling away layer after layer, inasmuch as you allow me, until I get as close to the core of you as I can. That is, until I know you. You. The real you, not the “you” you present to the masses, but you. It can be overwhelming, but…the more I seek you, the more I find you. The more I find you, the more I love you. Why? Because I begin to see myself in you, and I begin to see you in me. To get to the core of you, I have to be willing to allow you to get to the core of me. If you know me at all, you know I protect my “core” at all costs. It can be frustrating trying to penetrate the walls I have spent years erecting and fortifying to protect it. In short, you have to want it. 🙂 Otherwise, it can be overwhelming, but the more you seek me, the more you find me. The more you find me, the more you love me. (Well, maybe; I’m a work in progress. :-))

He said come close to Him and He will come close to us. The more we seek Him, the more we find Him. The more we find Him, the more we love Him.

He longs to be near to us, to have us lean back against Him and breathe, feel His heartbeat until it merges with ours, overwhelm us with His love and peace…if we’ll let Him.